Because if one day she were to lose this ever valuable thing on Earth,

her smile will vanish just like the clouds going behind the sun.

Distance doesn't matters to us, for we know our heart will always be together. We don't meet up regularly nor see each other because we are no longer in the same school. But it isnt any underlying factors for us to drift apart. I really thank god for having known her for cause I love her very much. We poured our sorrows to each other, confide almost everything, to be there when tears came rolling down, being everything that made my life even better. I'll always remember those memorable times we once had, not forgetting any. I love you, beloved mommah. Angels, please keep her in comfort and take good care of her on my behalf.

I got back home early in the morning today, I was extremely exhausted man. I was lil unhappy because of something that took place this morning, but I don't really take it to heart and I've simmered down. So yeah.

So my day for ytd goes like this:

Went Cyrus with Ahlu and her sister to meet B. Played for a full 5 hours till mid night while waiting for Jj to come. My eyes were red and sore after that, I know I've strained my eyes on the screen for too long. Aftermath, accompanied them to have supper and to Tiong Bahru Park.

We were a disturbance to any of the neighbourhood esates, if there were any. It was fun though. After having fun, we decided to slack at Henderson's Soccer Court. Without us realising it, it was already 5am at that time. Most of us were already feeling sleepy and how they wished there is a comfy sofa right beside them. HAHA.

Today - I left house at only 9pm to meet Huiling together with Siti and Tracy went back home instead. I had Spicy Stringray for dinner. That causes me to still be so full until now,



Adeline, Huiling and Siti's over at my place just now. We took many many pictures with my web cam and we also had quite a bit of catching up.


Imma go out with mama tmr, for I yay:D Good night earthlings:D I love E:D

Labels: - Fading., Contradicting

The key to my heart,


Miraculously, Miss Carilyn had stayed home for the full whole day today. -Applause- I didn't attend school today, and I felt so rejunevated today after a long rest.

I merely went downstairs to have prawn noodles with B for lunch. He left shortly after that. I began to miss him soon after he left. I spent my time at home watching tv, spring-cleaning my bedroom, and revise for Geo. I was bored to tears aftermath and hence, decided to go on my weight balance. Staggeringly, I found out that I've actually gained 3 more kg!!! Oh my..... I just couldn't bring myself to believe it.

Shared this piece of appalling news with Adeline wawa on msn. HAHA I told her its my turn now to ask for advice in slimming down with no tummy fats. But, awwww :( In deep denial, I've been eating a lot lately. I finally confessed. Yes, I gonna do something about it, but hey, steamboat outing's coming up next with small family. Hoooooo

It is twelve am right now and I'm awaiting... Hopefully you wont forget.
Luv! :D


Whatever is left, I'll seal it tightly deep down in my heart


First and foremost, thank you Ahlu. Thank you for causing me to skip school today. She's an ass, really! She deliberately turned off my alarm in the morning without my acknowledgement. Reasons-being is that she does not feel like going to school, thus resulting in me not going as well. When I was jostled from my sleep from noises coming from outside, I was utterly astounded by the glare of sunlight penetrating through my bedroom. It was already 8.30am. I was momentarily stunned.

Since its already that late, I decided to go back to sleep. I woke up again at 10am, and this time Ahlu was awaken by me. Thats how I knew the reason for not being able to wake up.

Anyway, I met Nickolas to Plaza Singapura today. We caught the movie "He's just not that into you". Halfway throughout the movie, I dozed off.. So once again, I cannot comment on that movie. But for something I know: there's darn @!#!@$@!# sexual parts.
P.S: I ate a lot for today. D;
Delon came and meet us after the movie, accompanied him -he-knows-i-know-Nickolas-know stuffs. Shortly after that, he went home and we went Tiong Bahru Plaza for our dinner.

A nice day out : )

Not going school tmr..... Sianzxszxsxszx.


A note for queenstownians: Don't cha find him familiar? He's our senior, graduated from last year's batch. (; I'm sure most of you recgonize him because he's famous for being friendly and helpful too. HAHAHAHA.

Say hello to N-I-C-K-O-L-A-S (:

I'm currently waiting for something............

Labels: gettng from bad to worst

Today I've been missing you whole day long,

Know something? Its so good being myself. I find myself so fortunate to still be in contact with childhood/primary school friends. In fact, I still see almost 3/4 of my friends around and keeping in touch with 1/2 of my friends.

One of them is Ahlu, 8 years and counting on. Needless to say, Ahlu is not her real birth cert name. Though we do not meet regularly, even though our house is just a block away, but we do catch up a lot when we meet each other. She's my happy apple (in chinese). HAHA. She really perked me up a lot and made the climax of my mood rising to the max. (:

I made a trip down to the nearest hopsital just now, Alexandra Hospital. If anyone recalled, I mentioned about me having rashes. The itchness is really getting on my nerves and I'm afraid of leavng any scars behind. Thus with the accompany of my Beloved Ahlu, I went to seek medication. Fortunately, doctor says nothing in particular and I got some medicine to apply.

Beloved girlfriend has gone back to her own house to stay and next one, Ahlu's coming over to stay. Hehe. As what (*) say, she gonna die in my hand very soon and very badly. Poor her! Heheheh

Argh, its 11.40pm and I'm waiting for her to come over. I'm still thinking if I should go down and meet (*) But I'm exhausted, should I? Nah.



Stressed manzsxszsx O levels, esp. for people like me who craves for club, shopping, outings ALL the time. Nothing thrills me more than having fun,,,
As I've mentioned before in the previous posts, I really lack motivation this time round. N levels' easy, and I could easily get A's for it. But what about O's?

Be happy, Carilyn...


Another wonderful weekend spent,


Darn it! I've got rashes all over my hand and face. (I just hope I will be fine after some time.) Because I really cannot stand the unbearable itchness and the feeling of you-just-cannot-scratch-it no matter what,

Arghhhhhhhh

I just came back from Mum's place and Great World City. Went to meet B and co just now and had Spice for dinner. Anyway I've rebonded my fringe and heh, I find it wierd because it's way too short for me but so far, people who saw me commented that it was nice, (= What a sigh of relief!



Weekends has came to an end, and I gotta start mugging tmr again.
Ciao!


No promises,

A splendid bbq night spent yesterday. I just came back home early in the morning together with E.
Here are the ins and outs of the whole celebration. There were about 20++ people over there, and we had liquor (Chivas, Vodka....) coupled with playing cards and bbq food and stuffs. Almost 1/4 of us vomited because of the massive amount of alcohol. Everyone was supporting one and another. Paradoxically, I'm not supposed to puke at all, even though I was already feeling the pressure and sensation in me. Thanks to Jasper who vomitted inside the tent and when I accidentally touched the stuffs in there, I smelt the vomiting particles and thus, I vomited as well. Peihui had the same situation as me. Anyone had that experience before too?

It was nice chatting with those new peeps whom I just got to know yesterday. They were all above the age of 18 (about 19-21 years old), about six of them. I still remembered vividly, they told me, What's love without Sex and Trust? I was overwhelmed, yes, I was. Realistic adults. It dawned on me that they indeed follow in the path of every adult. I also spent some time dwelling over what they'd said.

E was dead drunk, second worst situation after Jasper. I had a hard time handling him and took some time to settle him down. At that time, my head was spinning with effects taking place in my body and his heavy weight just went crushing down on me like nobody cares. He didnt know about all this because he was in a sub-conscious state. I stayed by him the whole night, I didn't get to sleep well the whole night because I feel the itchness all around my body. Its darn itchy and uncomfortable! When I first reached home, I immediately took a quick bath which then in turn, made me feels so much soothing, refreshed and nice. :DwoahHH

Alright, B just left my house to Cyrus. And I'm all alone at home with the droplets of rain accompanying me. HAHA. I gonna await for my mum's call to go out shopping together! YAY. Hopefully, no last min changes. (:

All in all, I hope that the birthday girl had enjoyed herself to the core last night which I thought it was so, and once again, Happy Sweet 17th. :D

This shall be the last time. last doings. I don't wanna lose my trust in you.

Off to rest (:

Labels: Always on my mind.

Downright disappointed,

I just had my bath. Currently waiting for the king, E. Wahahaha. I'm going to East Coast Park to celebrate Ruchin's 17th birthday. Happy Birthday, Aiai :D We shall have lotsa of fun later on.

Outfit to east coast ;


Have you ever got accused for no reasons? Have you ever got badmouthed for things that you'd never done at all? I am sure everyone gone through that experience before and now, it's befalling on me. I've got no evidence to testify against your allegations, I've got no say when you've already doubted me. I just want you to know that I don't have to go to such a extent of knowing other people's secret, because I know you will tell me what I wish to know. Its really appalling to me how you can imagined me to be that sort of person. You should have known me well enough, isn't it? Four years, FOUR YEARS. I placed myself in your shoes and I understand you may have your own doubts too because it is just too much of a coincidence. You are seething with fury, I know. But please, trust me that I'd never done it at all.
What I can say is this much, it all goes out to how much you want to believe.

Will update with later's pictures(:

P.S: I would like you to believe me, dear friend.


Happy pills,

Everything is just as fine for me for the whole of this week. Nothing comical or unusual. It's coming to weekends and I'm so looking forward to it. Me luv weekends :D Weekends to me = holidays no study ^^ (Maybe with the exception on Sunday.)

Today, I accompanied Nicole to stay back in school to study. She left at about 4.30pm and there were Tricia and I left. Aftermath, I went over to meet up with my mum. Darn, it has been long since I met her and vice versa. Much time has been occupied by school, sch remedials and stufs. I've got no extra time at all as I'm always feeling lethargic upon reaching home.



I'm a harpie girl today because I get to hug Mama to tell how much I'd missed her, knowing that Mama dote on me the most, I'm not disheartened by anything else at all. She ordered two diff kinds of Pizza hut for me and Huiling for our dinner. Also, few hundreds dollars to survive these weekend HAHAHAHA.



P.S: I want to go Zouk badly. I want to club with my clubbing cliques real soon. Even though underaged parties sucks big time, but it is enough to get me and the lovelies in high-spirits in there. We danced, we enjoyed, and we love being the centre of attraction. HAHA. Yes/no JJ & Siti? (=

Anyway this goes out to people you-know-who-you-are,

I know due to my tight schedule with relation to my school matters, I'd not been meeting up with people who are not in the same school as me or some, in the same school but different level. I really hope all this wouldn't affect us and thus, leading us in hostile relationships. I apologise if I've promised to meet, but in the end, I was held up by something else. This year is a crucial year for me and I know I'd got to invest a lot of time and effort onto all these difficulties ahead of me. O levels is no ordinary examination even though its called 'Ordinary Examination'. Not at all.. Competitiveness has been stiffer and stiffer, so much that the pressure is constantly there. I seek your understanding. And I do hope distance and time do not stand a dominant place between us.

so many things over from mum's place,


ilooklikeababyoverhere, don't i? =x


School girl says: "Have an good night everyone and sweetest dreams tonight (;
She's missing E, pondering whether did E missed her? Hehe(:"


Taken a year ago,


Colours,

"The night is still young", thats what people around me used to say.
Its twelve am right now, and Miss Carilyn MaCain Ho has not gone to bed yet. For goodness sake, just hide her lappy anywhere you like and return it back to her only during her leisure time. Well, I lack discipline...

I hate to say this, but I've to...

SCHOOL SUCKS, )-:
I've lost my movtivation, the movtiation I always had. Paradioxically, I'm no longer the one who had a strong mindset to keep on going, to be one of the best, to achieve with all her might, the admiration of all. Coming to this, I remembered vividly when I was in Secondary Three, I got TOP for all three subjects. My name was repeatedly called out, and no words, really, could describe me at that point in time. Another sleepless night, I've not accomplished anything at the very least today.

My sufficient time coupled with my laziness is far too much a waste. While others are absorbing new things into their brain cells, I'd not gained any. I'm lagging behind, I guess. I regretted not studying hard during PSLE and not getting in to the Express stream and I do not hope for any more regrets in life whereby I could make a choice myself.

E just left, Huiling's fast asleep and I just can't get to bed. I've got red eyes,
)-:

Its the love chemistry between us that kept me going for long.
Tell me, truthfully, that I'm not at all silly neither am I naive, but instead loveable. Tell me that this road is worth craving through.
With each passing day, I no longer want to be alone.
Every happy ending(?) I want this day to come after forever, or never.

Yours truly.

Thanks for ur gift..., luv (:

So much words left unsaid, I just hope that I would be able to concentrate more on my studies. This is a crucial year, and I can't afford to risk it. I've seen many of my friends beign remorseful about it and I do not wish to follow in their path.
Alright, School Girl Carilyn gotta sleep now so as to conserve my energy all for tmr.
Nights!


Hearts hearts hearts and more hearts along the way, (:


Meet Bobby Riley Seet,


Valentines may be like a very special day for you, a moment you can't forget. You'd got my admiration, if you've spent your day well (: But valentines to me is just like any other day, because he is the love of my life. Prophetically, every day is a valentines, a special occasion you marked on your love with your soulmate. The significance of thirty six hours spent with the one you love wholeheartedly, even though, doing nothing much, is more than enough :) What matters the most is having him/her by your side. `````

Surprisingly, I only stepped out of my house door at the time of 11pm, after Meiling came up to place her stuffs in my house. Bid goodbye to B, and cabbed over to Plaza Singapura to catch the movie: 'Valkyie' Oh and there were Ruchin, Ruting, Peihui, JJ, Dion and many others. I practically slept for the whole movie. The problem lies with my tireness, nothing to do with the movie at all, hence I cannot rate for this movie at all.

Cabbed home at 3am, after smoochies to Gf and Behbeh, I immediately went to bed.

Looting and Peihuihui (;


Me like this picture ;


Assy ;



Going Great World now, ok bye.

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Know it.

I pick myself up from the ground when I fall. No big deal. This. Is. Me.

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