Monday, February 16, 2009
Taken a year ago,
Colours,
"The night is still young", thats what people around me used to say.
Its twelve am right now, and Miss Carilyn MaCain Ho has not gone to bed yet. For goodness sake, just hide her lappy anywhere you like and return it back to her only during her leisure time. Well, I lack discipline...
I hate to say this, but I've to...
SCHOOL SUCKS, )-:
I've lost my movtivation, the movtiation I always had. Paradioxically, I'm no longer the one who had a strong mindset to keep on going, to be one of the best, to achieve with all her might, the admiration of all.
Coming to this, I remembered vividly when I was in Secondary Three, I got TOP for all three subjects. My name was repeatedly called out, and no words, really, could describe me at that point in time. Another sleepless night, I've not accomplished anything at the very least today.
My sufficient time coupled with my laziness is far too much a waste. While others are absorbing new things into their brain cells, I'd not gained any. I'm lagging behind, I guess. I regretted not studying hard during PSLE and not getting in to the Express stream and I do not hope for any more regrets in life whereby I could make a choice myself.
E just left, Huiling's fast asleep and I just can't get to bed. I've got red eyes,
)-:
Its the love chemistry between us that kept me going for long.
Tell me, truthfully, that I'm not at all silly neither am I naive, but instead loveable. Tell me that this road is worth craving through.
With each passing day, I no longer want to be alone.
Every happy ending(?) I want this day to come after forever, or never.
Yours truly.
Thanks for ur gift..., luv (:
So much words left unsaid, I just hope that I would be able to concentrate more on my studies. This is a crucial year, and I can't afford to risk it. I've seen many of my friends beign remorseful about it and I do not wish to follow in their path.
Alright, School Girl Carilyn gotta sleep now so as to conserve my energy all for tmr.
Nights!
