Description of The Current Me.

I don't know why I miss you so much.
Yeah, I don't know why I still feel your touch.
You left me feeling high and empty.
With nothing, nothing but the question Why.
I guess you had another direction,
and leaving me with nothing but a dead connection.

If you call me today,
I'll say that I'm fine.
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice,
it's just a lie.
You knew what you had.
You still walked away leaving me in this mess.

You knew what you were doing to me.
And, I guess I was too blind to see.
Well, you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so badly.
But I'd do it again to relive what we had.
There are many things left to remind me,
of a love that I just can't leave behind me.



"All this while, I never realised the people around me, who actually cared for me. Never, once. Just for the Diamonds of Mine."

On the 3 July(a Thursday), I teared in school. Almost a breakaway.
For some, even tough I don't really know you well, you even ran all the way to the canteen stall 8 to get me packets of tissues.

For one whom I don't even speak to you before, you consoled me and with a pat on my shoulders, you calmed me down.

The crowd that surrounded me, was nevertheless The Beloveds. (I apologize if I've pushed your hands away.)

The Lovelies, who took turns to skip class and stayed in the toilet with me all the way till after school. Running up and down, back and forth to class. And, I apologize for causing you all so much trouble, and even nearly caught by the teacher.

Thanks for the two caring ones for coming down to the corridor of my house during the late night to crack jokes to make me smile, knowing that I'm tearing by my own at home.

Thanks to the many, who accompanied me through late nights, trying their best to have me smiling, despite that they ain't good with jokes.

Thanks for Ziliang Bb for helping me with the passing of stuff, and also lend me his shoulders when I was crying non-stop for 120 mins.

Thanks for SW who kept calling and asked If I'm feeling well.

Thanks for Sherman and Kok long who agreed to send me back home before going home even though they knew they would missed the last bus, despite one staying at Henderson and one, Clementi.

Yinlue, Candy, JJ. Three of you gave me the strength to get up after I fall.
They regained my smile, but it's a pity it was for a short moment.
You've never given up on me, though I promised not to sink deeper.
I broke my promise, and none of you blamed me.


I'm sorry. I've caused all of you worrying, me alone can ruined everything down because of my own problems. I feel bad having to ring any of you up when I wasn't feeling great, and I pulled you down into my emotions as well by doing so.

I've loved too much, till I've clean forgotten what I'm susposed not to.
I thought you're someone whom I can lean on when times get rough, someone whom I can confide in.
I always wished the day of happiness would arrive before for us, you & I.
Your reasons are always so Powerful whereas mine are always so vulnerable.
You left me hanging in a dead city, the emptiness in me till the day I die.

Even tough I really love you, I gonna smile b'cas I deserve too.
Perhaps, V is way better than C.

Labels: The words in the letters is real than anything else. If you get what I'm trying to say..