Saturday, December 22, 2007
It's very late now. But I'm forsaking my sleep just to reply a post. A post which I need to reply to defend myself.
Happened to see something disappointing & in a not so good mood right now.
To think tht my own good friend actually wrote that about me. You did not mention names, but the facts are pointing at me. It's so obvioussss. U even asked me in msn, whether isit fun? I replied: how could it be fun after all these things happened?
I just want to defend myself by saying all out here. U never know that kind of feeling. Do you know how long I`ve awaited for this day & how happy am I? You don't know. You`re helping him to vent out the anger. How much I love him*, don't you know? Asking me to walk away from that place like nobody`s business, it`s so impossible. That heartache came from my heart, it's painful. DO YOU KNOW?!!!!!! He cried, didn't I too? U say I make too much noise just to attract his attention. That`s utterly rubbish, the facts are I ddun wish & dun bear to leave the place.
But I've no choice, I can't be a fool standing there watching them playing isn't it? I was just merely venting my anger by walking away, hoping that they would call us back. To my disappointment, sadly NO. One of the reasons for crying was that I can't stand it anymore. I was wondering, why WHY DIDN'T THEY EVEN BOTHER ABT US?
The other thing was Me & Him. U too says that it`s hard to forget someone, I gets to see him almost everyday. Tell me, how? How long have you known me, don't you know me well?
Anyway, I know you gonna read my blog too for sure. I dont hope for your understanding, cas I think we won't be in contact anymore. You're my dearest friend yet you wrote till I can't believe if I don't see it with my own eyes. It's like thousands of knife spearing into my heart. So many things happened these few days, and again another matter.. YOU~~
